What was today like for Kili Ongoy?

Today was a day that I got to relax.
Today I achieved something that makes me proud.
Today was about new beginnings and happy endings.
Today has all the details of a new life.
Today had big potential.
Today was great.
Today was full of regret.. That I didn't do my best in high school.
Today made me realize that things happen for a reason.
Today had that state of mind that said "so what.. MOVE ON."
Today meant that there was a new tomorrow.
Today could have been much more but the amount it was, was just right.
Today I was alive in all aspects of life.

I started off today with a great day at school. I was happy. I loved the place of mind that I was in. And most of all, today put a smile on my face.

College has been stressful and I have been freaking about it for the past few months. Stressing over something so simple. Today was the day I made my decision to go to college at University of Nevada Reno. I didn't get into UCSB for a reason. Maybe STD's aren't my thing! Definitely not my thing. I am in the pool for housing and that is a great feelings.

Today I realized that there is always tomorrow. If I mess up today, I have tomorrow to start anew and even fix what I have done to mess up today. Today I had one of those days that I reflected on the past few months. All the things that I have done that I wish I could have done better. LIKE high school. There is a major part of me that would've wished I would have done better. But thins happen for a reason.

I mentioned that today is a day that has all the details of a new life. I can now think about the future without freaking out about what I am going to do. I am going to go to UNR and I am going to make the best out of it. Today had great potential.. that will lead into something better. Today was one of those days that laid out everything for my life that will be in the upcoming year.

There may be things in my future that will upset me and piss me off but today was not one of those days. Today was full of laughter and smiles. It was one of those days that really nothing could have made my day upset. It started with a perfect day, full of my friends that were all smiling. A smile goes a million miles.

Today there was a point that I just relaxed. I felt so alive that all I wanted to do was take a moment and pause. Pause and see what my life was like from the outside. AMAZING! There is always moving on and forgetting about the past, today was a day that I finally achieved that logic. I realized that today was a perfect day for me. I felt relaxed because I am not afraid of college anymore.


"It doesn't matter where we take this road.."

Tomorrow if a golden train came to take you away, would you go or would you stay?

Justin Nozuka sings a song called Golden Train where he is talking to a girl that he is in love with me. In the beginning of the song he says that he just wants to be with her and near her and than has starts thinking of "if a golden train came to take you away, would you go or would you stay?" and starts panicing of if she was really gone.

If there was ever to chance to just get up and leave the life that you were living, would you take it? Would you take the opportunity to leave all the friends and family that you have right now and make something else out of your life? Are the people in your life worth staying for?

I have friends that I love and family that I would do anything for but what exactly would make me want to stay because of that.

If someone asked me if I would take that golden train right now, my first response would be yes because life is short and I want to make the most out of the life that I have on earth. I want to be able to sit on the front porch when I am 80 years old and think about what an idiot I was for making some crazy adventure or think back with old friends and say "that was fun, I'll never forget that." So most likely I would WANT to get on that golden train to anywhere but the more I think about it.. Once I stand up near that conductor I will run as fast as I can back to my "safe house."

I have second thoughts all the time about going OFF to college without a safe house to run back to so how could I up and leave the life that I have now forever? I would never want to leave the people that I have in life bcause they are all in my life for a reason. I don't know why everyone is in my life but once I find out, I will know that it is important. What would I do without my mom there to take care of every boo boo that I get? Or what would I do without my sister to complain about EVERYTHING to.. or even better, to talk about EVERYTHING with. I love my bestfriends and I don't know how I could have any better ones.

There are things in life that make you want to jump on that golden train and never look back but stop and think of all the things in life that make you hold back and stay in the place you are at. What exactly are you waiting for?

Everyone has a different reason that they don't want to jump on that train. My reason, as of now is friends and family. I hope that one day I will be able to jump on that golden train and have the ride of my life.

I don't want to be gone forever because I love the life that I have but I want to be 80 and say that I rode the golden train at least once.


[ANOTHER DAY OF RAMBLING COMPLETED]