Is it all going to work out?

Of course it is. Just not in the way most people want.

(On a different note before I start my rant for the night.. 11 months until Christmas!)

I went to church today! Congrats to me.. Second time in about.. four or five months? That sounds bad. Anyways, it was amzing. Made me think about a lot and realize a lot too. I just kept asking myself if it was all going to work out. They talk about how we should trust God in everything we do but in reality how many people can say that they do? Okay, so maybe a lot. I am certainly not one of them (though I am working on it).

I think about College a lot and I try to think about what the right choice is. I want to know where I should go but really only I can decide (and my parents for that financial crap that I love..). If I make the wrong choice, will God tell me? Or will I just try and figure it out on my own? Probably try and figure it out of my own because I am stubborn like that. That was morning thought.

As the day progressed I started thinking about tomorrow. TOMORROW: Calc test, bringing up Monterey to the parentals, work.. etc. I came home from church and started cleaning my room trying to clear my head because what I was thinking about, was definitely not something that I wanted to deal with at the moment.

Things just weren't working out the way I wanted them to. My calc test tomorrow is going to be a failure because I can't seem to remember anything we learned after break (STUPID DISNEYLAND) and I can't seem to want to remember anything we learned after break. I studied for a little bit and decided that Facebook looked way more appealing. So I went on that and started cleaning my room again.

Once again, I got distracted and I started to do something else. This time, I couldn't stop doing it. I read Breaking Dawn. I probably read over 150 pages tonight.. all because I don't want to deal with my calc test, or work, or anything else that is going on tomorrow.

IT FEELS LIKE IT ISN'T GOING TO WORK OUT.

Nothing is. But I have to somewhat be patient. Patience is one thing that I lack. VERY MUCH SO.. Hypocrite, I know. (For those who don't know, I always tell people to be patience because it annoys the hell out of me when someone is antsy about something.. Sorry if I do it in the future).
Anyways, I am taking my own advice for once and telling myself that everything is going to work out fine.

So what if I fail my calc test, there will be plenty of tests in the future to pass. So you know what? Everything is going to work out.. In it's own little way..

Someone told me tonight.. Patience is key.