Where are you going next year?

"Where are you going next year?" seems to be the question of the year. Pressure is all that it is building up to. I don't know where I am going next year because I don't know what colleges are going to accept me. If CSULB won't even accept me because of budget cuts who knows who will ACTUALLY accept me.

I just feel so lost when it comes to next year. Where will I end up? I would love to know right now but it's just not that simple. Once again I need faith that I am going to be going to a school that is perfect for me. Going to a school that will love to have me and that I will have an awesome time at. So far I am actually thinking of going to University of Nevada, Reno. It's a great school.. That's all I got. It's in a sucky location, and it's freezing. Oh and there's snow.

Snow-NO.

What am I supposed to do when people ask me where I am going to school next year? If I could say that it's in God's hand than I would. But how can I say that when I am the one that ultimately picks where I am going to be going. So what if I get into all the other colleges that I have applied to (UCSB, UCSD, San Diego State..etc), there still is the decision of where I am actually going to go. God can't really make that decision for me.. Well I guess he can but I am the one that physically makes that decision so..

HOW AM I GOING TO KNOW WHERE TO GO?

It is scary to think about and it's the most pressure that I have been under since I was on the swim team when I was 12. School is the last thing that I want to worry about right now but it will always be the thing that I am worried about. I want to be the one that goes to school and loves it, not the girl that goes to school and wonders what it would be like to go to another school. Thinking it was the wrong choice the whole time. I would hate that and I do not want that to happen.

So.. Where am I going next year? Ask Him. Only God knows. And God knows, I have no idea.